HI MY NAME'S KAT & I'M A HOT MESS

The past few weeks have been a whole lotta stressful, and I have been trying to hold my ish together. I moved to my new place this past March and have been so incredibly happy with the location and my roommate couldn’t be more perfect!  My bf says that she and I are like twins, we both run food blogs, we love cooking, are obsessed with dogs, and all things non-toxic.  Let’s just say, we are a match made in heaven.  Everything had been perfect, and then we found out that her work visa got lost in the mail.  YES, the US Post Office lost her workers visa.  Many of you are probably thinking, well that’s no biggie, she can get another one. But my friends, it isn’t that simple. The US is by far the most challenging country to get a visa with and if she were to reapply for one it would take five months for her to receive a new one, and on top of that she would have to pay significant fees all because someone made a mailing error.  Needless to say, I have turned into a total hot mess.  I have gone from crying and back more times than I can count and feel terrible that Carolina will have to return back to her home country and leave her job.   

It is stressful times like these, when I feel myself itching to return to some of my old habits.  It’s crazy to me that when times of high stress flare, my old habits start to speak back up again.  My brain is telling me that pad Thai will help this situation but let’s be real no amount of carbs are going to keep Carolina in the US, and they certainly aren’t going to make me feel any better either.  Today has been a high tear jerker because Carolina leaves for Columbia tomorrow and we posted her part of our apartment for rent.  Even though I can sense that my hot mess levels are high, I am going to have to find a way to reel it in and accept that sometimes life just doesn’t go the way we planned, and we have to keep rolling with the punches. I have so much to be thankful for in life, and know that I have made a friend for life and am thankful for the short but amazing time we had together.     

I keep hoping that the situation will change and that Carolina won't have to leave, but it seems like things aren't on our side this time.  I have felt myself becoming reclusive during this time, and have found it a struggle to write and provide creative content for you all.  I even contemplated whether to share something so personal, but for me writing is cathartic and I needed to get things out into the open air.  I know that things will get better soon, but saying goodbye is always tough.  So for now, I am just going to say see you soon.